Reaching Out

This one is for you. Yes you.

Not wanting to hide it anymore, when Lyra reached three months, I put up a post to celebrate her, but also to let people know that I was suffering. I was so touched by the many responses I received and the outpouring of love from friends and family.  

I am indebted to you and your support, especially those of you who answered my questions and reassured me. 

I really owe you and I can't believe how many of us have suffered with PND (and that I had no clue!) 

Thank you for going through it, thank you for recovering from it, and thank you for talking to me about it to help me through it.

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