If you need help today...

It suddenly occurred to me that although I am pointing out the positives of my experiences so far, I'm recounting my story in chronological order. That means I'm starting with what hasn't worked before I get around to exploring and focusing on what is working and how I am healing.

That's all very well and good if you are reading this and have recovered, or you already know what is working for you. But if you are reading this and you know you need help, but you don't know where to start then please reach out. I'm happy to speak to you and skip to the recovery, or point you in the right direction of help. My email is bethany.rose86@gmail.com. 

For now though, I'll say that PANDAS charity is fantastic (look them up on Facebook to fill your newsfeedwith positive supportive content). They have a helpline and you can ring them to talk things through between the hours of 11am - 10pm on 0808 196 1776.

Hey Mama also have a text line on 07771 125473, or you can message them on Facebook. 

The Samaritans can be reached on 116123 at any time, night or day, for free if you need immediate support.

Don't suffer in silence. Don't go through this alone.

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